Well, I went and posted

and now I have to do it >.<

SO
IF ANYONE EVEN READS THIS, dundundun
Leave a comment and I will:

a) Tell you why I friended you,
b) Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.,
c) Tell you something I like about you,
d) Tell you a memory I have of you,
e) Ask something I've always wanted to know about you,
f) Tell you my favorite user pic of yours,
g) In return, you must post this in your journal.

psst, why isn't there a musical mood? i'm feeling very musical =o AND IT WON'T LET ME CHANGE IT

WELL HAI GUYS

EDIT:

AWW, I just went and visited the hershey chocolate factory, and we went on the tour, and at the end, we got free candy, everyone got 2 peices, except me, I GOT 4! It was a guy, and I figured either he was being nice, or he liked me or something. I was like because usually guys don't do stuff like that to me. Maybe PA is different

OMG this laptop is SO frustrating! It keeps moving the cursor and then i'm typing in really random places!

OMG I have like 54 deviations to look at, and I last logged in on the 17th >.< cripes

I'm in pennsylvania right now, so if you live in PA, COME SAY HI. I might go to new york, but i'm not sure bout that yet. I'll be coming home on the 26th, so yeah.

umm, OH YEAH, i'm getting a new guitar, for freeee. My aunt has one that she said she didn't want. It's kinda cheap, but according to reviews, it's got nice sound, so we'll see. It's shaped like an SG too, so YAY. I'm still hoping to get an actual "good" guitar yet though. OH MATRIX IS GONNA BE HAPPY! I miss him I hope he's not getting in too much trouble at home.

I still haven't sent a friend request to the guy I like, BUT I'M SO SCARED, and I gotta go to the bathroom real bad so i'll write more lata! *runs*

ok now I have nothin' to do so i'ma take this queez that I stole from muse

and don't ask me why i'm talking so weird

FEARS

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.


I Fear…

[x] the dark (only outside when i'm alone)
[x] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[x] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[x] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
Total so far: 4

[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk (lmao, why?)
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
Total so far: 5

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[x] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities (i'm afraid i'll mess up D: )
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[x] tornadoes
Total so far: 10

[x] hurricanes (I don't live by the ocean, but I would be afraid)
[x] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[x] ghosts
[x] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up
Total so far: 17

[x] creepy noises in the night
[x] bee stings (bees more-so)
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[x] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] v6 (???)
Total so far: 21 I WIN, yes, i'm paranoid x.x

Ok wellllll

Last tuesday, I got toothpaste in my eye.

DON'T LAUGH, IT FRICKEN HURT! BAD
My toothbrush was like a catapult

NE way, school ended on friday, AND I didn't tell the guy I like him, nor did he tell me

I didn't see him on Friday, which I hoped I had, because MAYBE I would have had the courage to say something... Maybe like "HEY, HAVE A GOOD SUMMER."
Now i'm spending my days thinking about him, and the nice little things we could have done this summer *sigh*

I SUCK

I'm now getting the news that guys can be more afraid of girls than vice versa. I'm kinda wondering how that might be the case with him, because I seriously can not imagine someone being more afraid of saying something to a person than I am with him.

I still have his myspace though, which i'm ALSO too afraid to send a message or w/e, because i'm afraid of what the consequences will be if he doesn't like me back, UGGHGUGHUHUGHGUHGHGUHGH

I need a haircut, but I have no monies, and i'm trying to find a style, SO If you find any good rockish hairstyles for girls, that aren't short, throw them at me. ANY suggestions I will really appreciate

Ok, I guess that's it

Hiiiii everyone.

I have my head on my arm, and I can hear my heartbeat. That's kinda strange...

So, anyway. I was playing with my processor for like 3 hours yesterday, messin' around with the distortion, and I <3 it. a lot. so yeah.

and umm, well, with the dude, on Monday, I was trying to fix a video on imovie for someone, and Imac's are like mirrors, so you can see pretty much everything behind you. And I kept scrolling through the movie (like half of it was black), but after awhile, I noticed him watching me for the longest time. I don't know whether he could see me back, but that made me happy. I'm pretty sure he likes me, but i'm STILL way too scared to talk to him I prayed for a sign, so I hope i'll get it. I hope SOMETHING happens before summer, because I will literally rot inside I had a dream about him last night, surprise surprise, I have a dream about him like every night... *sigh*

You guys are probably really sick of hearing it about this dude aren't you? i'm sorry =x , but I have no one else to tell >.>

Yeah, school ends on the 6th, I'm flying to pennsylvania for 9 days in the end of june, and i'm taking drivers ed in july, and driving in august. that's basically my summer.... whee.

well, I guess that's it for meh update?

Oh, it was like 70 degrees yesterday, and today it's only gonna be 56. weather sucks.

Well, today was a bummer.

Firstly, I brought my guitar into school with my pedal and everything. It was mainly for a teacher, because she wanted me to, but I was hoping so bad for the guy I liked to see me play.

Well, he didn't and that pretty much made my whole day sad. I almost cried about it. It's like, i'm trying to talk to this guy, without talking. As it is I get all nervous and shaky when i'm around him, so how can I even talk. I know I keep writing about this in every single journal, but this is seriously taking a toll on me.

He is pretty damn confusing too. Like on tuesday, I was sitting in the Library/lab, precariously faced to the hallway because I knew he would walk by, and he did with his friend, but he just kept walking and in my head, I was like "NO _____ TURN AROUND!" and then, HE DID! I was like =o in my head again, but I pretended to be reading Rolling Stone, and then he and his friend came in, and then he said something about driving into a wall, and then, his friend kept walking, and he was just standing there for the longest time it seemed like. I had no idea if he was looking at me, or a magazine. It's like I almost knew in my head that he wanted to tell me something, but couldn't. I still have no idea how he feels, but I got such an urge that he wanted to tell me something.

Man, this is so hard. I wish I could talk telopathically, or with subliminal messages blah, so that was my day.





100 Things About Me:

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
myself?

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
blackkk

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
If you mean in my dreams, then hell yes.

4. Do you plan outfits?
usually

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
upset

7. Who was the last person you kissed?
the guy I like...in meh imagination

8. Person before that?
SAME

10. What are you craving right now?
love

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
.....eeeewww

12. Do you make prank calls?
no, that's mean

13. Ever hooked up with some one out of state?
noo

14. Do you sleep with any stuff animals?
sometimes

15. Would you dance to the taco song?
there's a taco song? how come I don't know about it *pouts*

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
who has time to do that?

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
I eated it.

18. Do you like anyone right now?
horribly

19. What do you think of crickets?
they're obnoxious when they jump in your face

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
nooo

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
eww, no

22. What are you listening to right now?
..nothing

25. Would you go sky diving?
I have no idea

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
yeah, probably to tell him to fix our stupid economy/government

27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
yeah, i'd hide in a bush with a potato launcher, and he'd never know.... hehehhehehhe

28. Is there anything sparkly on you?
yep, meh scarf

30. Do you rent movies often?
sometimes

31. Who sits behind you in your math class?
a fish...
some kid.

34. Can you count backwards from 74?
probably

35. Who are you going to be with tonight??
myself...

36. Brown or white egg?
brown ones are apparently better for you.

38. Ever been on a train?
nooo

39. Ever told someone you loved them?
yes, in a family manner, but in a relationship manner, no

40. Do you have a cell phone?
yeah, but I hardly use it.

41. Are you a virgin?
...yes

42. Any kids?
yes....no

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
I don't know, things

44. Ever had cream puffs?
what are cream puffs?

45. Ever had Breaded Shrimp?
no, I don't eat shrimp

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
noo

47. What was the last question you asked?
what are cream puffs?

lol

48. What was the last CD you bought?
a beautiful lie..yeah I don't buy CD's very much

49. What is/was your bus number for school?
it always changes

51. Is your hair curly?
no, it's wavy

52. Last time you cried?
I was so close to today, but on Sunday

53. Ever walked into a wall?
yeah, a door too

54. Ever walked UP a wall?
yeah, who hasn't?

55. Have you ever bought anything from PacSun?
is that an ice cream?

56. Favorite time of the year?
spring or fall

57. Whats your favorite number?
7

58. Favorite colours?
blue, white, black, silver, all them

59. Do you have any piercings?
yeah

60. Do you have any tattoos?
nooo

61.Who was the last person you held hands with?
umm, my mom?

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
if I fall asleep

63. Where was your default picture taken at?
IS THIS ABOUT MYSPACE?!

if so, it was taken in the living room. he he

64. Why was your default picture taken?
because I felt like it, it looks awesome

65. Do you like your life right now?
I would say no, but it could be a lot worse I guess

66. How do you feel about 'love'?
It hurts especially when you like someone so bad, but you can't even freakin' talk to them, and they don't talk to you

67. What is your favorite animal?
horsie or doggie or kittie

69. Do you have good vision?
I wish I did, contacts are annoying

70. Can you hula hoop?
from what I can remember

71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
if you can't forgive, you can't be forgiven

72. Do you have a job?
noo

74. What are you wearing?
pants, a scarf, a lace undershirt thing, and a black long sleeved shirt

75. What does your hair look like?
hair...

but it's that dirt blonde color fading to blonde, and it's wavy, and with a bunch of flyaways >.<

76. Ever climbed out a window?
no

77. Can you handle the truth?
depends

78. What was the most recent thing you bought?
my guitar processor

79. How often do you talk on the phone?
not very much

80. What's the longest you talked to someone on the phone?
like, 2 hours

81. Do you hate/dislike more than 3 people?
yeah, I don't like a lot of people

83. Are you sarcastic?
indeed

84. Have you ever slapped someone?
yeah

85. Do looks matter?
kinda, but personality is more important

86. Do you use chapstick?
probably too much

87. Are you too forgiving?
depends on the situation. I don't forgive easily.

88. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
LET'S COUNT. 1, 2, 3, atleast 9 things

89. Do you own a gun?
no =o

90. Where are you located?
in meh room

91. Have you ever been in a castle?
a castle made of sheets yo

92. Do you like your hair?
not nesscessairly, but hopefully I will when I get it cut.

93. Do you like yourself?
I have low self-esteem

95. question deleted.
okee then

96. When was the last time you talked on aim?
like 2 weeks ago

97. Random statement:
"What did you cut off?" -me in biology

99. What are you doing today?
being upset over the same guy

100. TAG 5 PEOPLE
youyouyouyouyouyouyou, umm I don't really care oihsiteub