Sooo

like 2 days after I posted that I talked to him again, at a grad party...actually I picked him up

and he came over to my house for the first time, and my other friend was here... he was still like all over me, and we've talked like every day since that saturday...on IM and text message and stuff

but yesterday, he was asking me like how I saw myself and what I think of myself and to like describe myself to him and stuff...

and my one friend said that he is trying to figure out what it'd be like if we dated or whatever

but then later on he told me that he felt bad about how I gained a bunch of weight because of my dad and then lost it really fast... and I guess he's somewhat worried about how I don't eat sometimes, but I DON'T have an eating disorder, and I do eat, so idk why he's worried...I mean I don't really like my body, but I don't starve myself

and i'm like so scared that he might use me for sex or something...and he's a gossipper, and my friend just told me to be careful, but this is the first time i've experienced something like this, and I hope I just don't fall for it...

I mean, I don't think he'd do something like that, but I mean, he's had sex with guys, and I don't wanna get some weird gay disease or something...even just a kiss could give me oral herpes (idk if he has it but still)

and my mom likes him, but she also told me to be careful, and I wish I didn't have to be careful! it just bothers me so much that I have to be on constant "guard" of myself just because of him...and I think I might start liking him back...

so I don't know what to do, he goes(went) through boyfriends like nothing...but then even when everyone thought he liked me he got another boyfriend, which lasted for like a week, so I don't know...

bi guys are sooooo confusing

OH AND GET THIS
my best friend JUST told me that the guy I used to have a crush on for like ever, he told her back in march to tell me that he didn't deserve me, and how I was so nice and how I deserved someone better than him, but she told him to tell me, but he never did. He told her this after bi-guy told me that he didn't like me...

now i'm not sure if I believe that or not
and she told him "come on, you guys belong together, like you have no idea"
and it was true, we were so compatible it was crazy

so I don't know what to think of that

and I got a sunburn on my leg, what's up with that
and I can't change my mood, raawwwr

Oh and i leave tomorrow for camp meeting, i'll be gone for 10 days, fun stuff...