heeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyy

in case you're interested, I don't think that guy likes me anymore....now he's all saying he's gay and stuff again


and i'm just like YOU KNOW WHAT, FINE, BE THAT WAY YOU sOUFISYEVBRISUHEDR

he makes no sense what-so-ever

UGH

anyway

it feels like there's 4 guys pulling me in 4 different directions right now

first, this guy, who's an emotional train wreck

then there's the guy I used to like, who I thought I was over, but just found out i'm not

then there's this other guy who works at the grocery store

and then there's this other guy who goes to my church

so idk what to do, who to go after, and yeah

i'm SO TIRED

and i'm just so sick of having this lonely feeling, and especially after this guy just drops me like i'm hot for some other idiot...

and he totally lied to my face yesterday, he said he was smoking weed with pages of the bible (which I found very offensive) and my friend was like "if you don't believe in God, then WHY do you have a bible?" and he came up with some lame excuse

and I was just like OHHH YEAH, YOU GOT PWND
he pisses me off a lot
and I just realized recently that there's never been any pictures of him WITH his "supposed boyfriends"

HMM who wants to guess how many times he's lied about that

like one time he said he got laid like 3 times before school one day

I was like "PFF HA YEAH RIGHT" because come on, that's not even realistic

but yeah, the guy who goes to my church is like, in college, so idk if he'd even like me, but i'm like friends with his sister(s) but mostly the one who's my age.

I just feel....so lame

and i'm taking 3 college classes this year, plus 3 other classes

yaay i'm a senior

hmm what else is new

I failed my drivers test twice, take it again next thursday, and if I fail it again, then I HAVE to renew my temps......which is more money

so I REALLY hope I get it, because I keep missing the bus and interfering with the work of my mom and bro

and my "best friend" is being weird lately...
k I like can't 'even pay attention to what i'm writing

so I should probably go to bed

laterz <3